about 4 months later, 9/14/2007, it was my so-called shipped day to bootcamp. before the bootcamp, i had been doing a lot of physical training to prepare for it. i did remember i said goodbye to everyone in high school and my best friends before this date. some of my friends still did not believe that i would join navy for sure. they thought i just joking around. of course, they did not understand my situation. i believed i could do it, and i hated to be a loser and lived in a poor environment. i wanted to be rich, and more successful than anyone else after graduated from high school. in fact, i was worried about myself more than everyone else.
" am i going to war? can i make it? can i make some money to support to my family? can i finish college? can i become a good leader? can i get over the language barrier? can i ......."
too many questions in my mind, and somehow i did not want to face it at all. i never told my mum about it because i did not want her to worry about me too. the date before i went to bootcamp, i stayed with my mum. i did not go anywhere, just enjoyed the dinner with family. during that moment, i just realized my family was so warm, and the food on the table were delicious. i remembered i did not have a good sleep.
the date was finally came, recruiter came to my house and picked me up. my mum looked happy somehow had a little bit worried. i knew no parents want their children to join the arm forces, especially new immigrants. i knew why i chose it, however, i did not know how to face it. the first day i was spending at MAP, the location was in downtown Los Angeles, CA. i spent a night with my roommate, Troy. he was come from korean, and he was really nice to me. he told me he joined the navy because he did not want to run business like his family. his family was pretty rich and he did not have too much worry. i asked him why he made a stupid decision.
" i just want to see the world. i love cooking, and i don't want to rely on my family. i choose it because my family is trying to let me to run business, but i don't. i want to find a way for myself."
after i listened what he said, it just made myself more struggle than used to be. my heart was jealous. i was jealous because he had a good family. he had a brother and both parents. his parents were running business for a while, and i thought his big brother was doing the same thing like his parents. we were in the same room, but came from different family background. i joined the navy because i wanted to help my family, but he joined the navy just for fun and get more training. i forgot how many hours i was sleeping during that night because i could not sleep at all. i feel so sad, and could not able to describe all the feelings in my heart.
we woke up at 4 am in the morning. after we finished the meal, we made a team and went to airport directly. finally, i had to say goodbye to California. i had to leave and went to my new place for training-Great Lakes, IL.
To Be Continued...........
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